this is part of my ER fanfiction series. it is an AU it is the world if Mark Greene had not died. Ella and Joseph kovac are the same age, 16. Ella and Joe have younger siblings, Anna kovac and David greene. anna was adopted. they areboth 14 the song to lisean to during this is the reggaeton remix of "my Immortal" it is how Ella feels for David and Rachel and how Mark and Elizabeth feel for Ella and David. {and mark for Rachel.] and that version is Ella and Rachel "song" this is one of Ella's memory's. warning DEATH! ER does not belong to me. if it did mark would not be dead and the new episodes would not make me wanna yell!
My name is Ella Greene. when i was twelve my big sister Rachel died. i knew about what she had done, the pills, but it had been twelve years! mom never,EVER forgave Rachel. she died, not haveing had a mothers love for any number of years. she told me about her life with jennafer. the woman never cared, she stop caring when Daddy left her. daddy loves me and David and would NEVER leave mom! if only mom had forgiven her. i diden't know mom could be cold until then. see rachel, she walked into the street, got hit by a car. she did it on perpose. she wanted the pain to stop i understand that now i was only twelve. my life was pretty good then i had mom,daddy,davey and tons of aunts and uncles from the hospital. she left me a letter i hid and still have not opened. i diden't even get to say goodbye she died SO quick. i still remember seeing how broken daddy looked when he came out of trauma. i ended up runing away, taking the EL around untill it got dark. then i got out, walked to the lake and sat for a long time. then i called aunt susan. she came and got me with suzy and baby cosmo in the backseat. suzy was 19 then.
I remember singing at her funaral. it was our song.
I'm so tired of being here Suppressed by all my childish fears And if you have to leaveI wish that you would just leave 'Cause your presence still lingers here And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase
[Chorus:]When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears And I held your hand through all of these yearsBut you still haveAll of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light Now I'm bound by the life you left behind Your face it hauntsMy once pleasant dreams Your voice it chased away All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase
[Chorus]
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone But though you're still with me I've been alone all along
[Chorus]
now mom might understand how i still feel. and as for Rachel? i know how she felt now.but i don't have to die to take away the pain.a knife does just as well.